I knew going back to work full-time, with Linmari in a daycare would be difficult. Never in a million years did I realise HOW difficult it would be to juggle housework, parenthood and a full-time job!
Even though I finish off at around 2-3 in the afternoon, I still seem to have nothing left of my day after picking up Linmari from daycare. My entire last week we only got back home, on average, at about 9 PM after doing everything that was on my list. I am a very social person and deem it very important to see my family at LEAST once a week. Suddenly it has all become very difficult!
Housework has gotten completely out of control, to the point where I finally agreed with Thinus that I need someone to help me with it at least once every two weeks. WOW, I hate the state it's in! But when I get home with my little girl in the afternoon, I just want to play with her to make up for the time we've been apart! Housework is the last thing on my mind! And because of that I've started going for easy, high-carb dishes for dinner. It's all a vicious cycle.
When I'm at work, I really miss my daughter SO much! I try my best to do my job and I've promised myself that I will work hard. But still, my heart yearns for my daughter. She LOVES mornings and is at her best. And now someone else (her darling daycare mother) gets to experience that lovely side of her, only for me to pick her up in the afternoon when she's already had lots of playtime with others. Not only do I find that difficult, but also having to juggle my time table at work and my expressing times. What a mission! I don't mind expressing, not in the least, but I struggle to find time to do little else than work and express. A woman needs to eat, you know?! So Thinus has been sent on the mission to go and buy me a double electric breastpump to make life easier.
Linmari will also start with solids soon. She literally STARES food out of your mouth! She would love to get hold of anything and everything I eat and I tend to let her have taste. She definitely prefers sour over sweet and is a real carnivore! We might have some issues with vegetables, since she's gagging whenever I give her mashed up veggies. Oh well, I knew there woud be a chance that she would be a fussy eater, especially since her daddy has issues with different textures in his mouth. We'll start low and go slow! At least she LOVES fruit!
My little girl has developed so much in the past week! (Good and bad). She started balancing on her hands and feet (like a bear ;-P ) and got her first two teeth! She also managed to contract bronchiolitis from somewhere and another virus causing upper respiratory infections, and started with her first antibiotics. Somehow I thought that she was invincible since she was exclusively breastfed. I was wrong! She also discovered her tongue and thinks its HILARIOUS to stick it out for anyone who cares to look! My little girl is not so little anymore! Oh ja, and she's sitting all by herself :-D *Proud OT mommy!* She got that right at just under 5 months! SCORE! Okay, I'll stop gloating now...
So, this has been a hard few weeks on both my husband and I. Our little girl made us sick and it's not fun not being able to breathe through your nose, nor taste. We're both tired from our late nights and would really like to get into a better (earlier) routine. Hopefully we'll get there soon!