I want to be a full-time stay-at-home-mom. This is something I never thought I would say, but hey, here I am! And tomorrow marks the beginning of a 3 week return to school to tie all the loose ends together. What a scary thought! My husband and I have been living on a combined income for the past 5 1/2 years! We literally only had a single-income household for 5 months and then I started working as an OT. So we're diving into this unknown financial abyss. Not sure how that's going to work out for us.
However, I know that this is what I want for my child. To have a mom that's always (well, mostly) available and to be able to organise our household so that my husband knows that when he comes home at night there'll at least be a cooked meal for dinner. I can't promise a clean house or ironed washing whenever he needs it but at the very least I can attempt to be an emotionally and physically available mother to our child. You see, I was privy enough to see my baby's first steps this holiday! What a wonderful gift! To share my baby's developmental milestones WITH her :-D
I will still be volunteering every now and again (to not completely lose my touch) but for the biggest part I'm going to discover this new world! I'm sure there'll be days that I would want to pull my hair out at the mere sight of a house that needs tidying or dishes that have to be done. But I hope to soon fall back into my maternity-leave routine (although my baby doesn't sleep NEARLY as much as she did back then!).
SOOOOO, because life is returning to normal tomorrow, I've:
- Packed everyone's lunches
- Packed the nappy bag
- Put out clothes for myself and my baby
- Put all my necessary paperwork for tomorrow together.
I'm excited and scared at the same time for what the future holds! Only GOD knows how this will all pan out. Thank YOU, GOD, for being in my past, present and FUTURE!
I wish all of you a wonderful third school term!